Unrequited Love

Is there any pain like heartache? I'm not sure. I think it's easier to be lonely than heartbroken. A lonely heart doesn't feel the pain of former memories. It doesn't feel betrayed, it doesn't recollect the past, and liken it to a cancer which prevents one from moving forward; almost wishing it never met the object of anguish to begin with. When considering loneliness, we generally mean lacking companionship or perhaps being  separated from others. However, the difference between heartache and loneliness is emotional agony. Perhaps, one can be lonely and okay; but never heartbroken, without the cognitive affliction of mental anguish. Anyway..... it's my opinion.

Comfortably Numb

In the midst of the long and winding road called life, is it best to feel anything at all? When no one can hear, see, or help, is it best to be comfortably numb? I've heard ignorance is bliss, and perhaps the beauty of this statement is its ultimate truth. As a lover of knowledge, naturally, I'm diametrically opposed to this statement. However, upon further reflection, perhaps the best times in my life were when I was younger (not that twenty three is old at all). What i'm saying is; I miss the days when a simple reassurance from my mom was all I needed. I think we're all like this. I'm just wondering if I'm happier with the knowledge i've attained? Or if the experiences of youth were better. As people become more knowledgeable, as the world becomes smaller, as religion provides less reassurance, and as humanity seems...well...as destructive as ever. What's the ultimate good in our accumulated knowledge? Especially considering the fact we were happier as children.

What I Fear Most

Ok, ok, what's going on America? A country whose first amendment includes "freedom of speech" sure is getting bitchy when it comes to, and here's the kicker, FREEDOM OF SPEECH. What's this atmosphere against speaking your mind? Of course a prime example is the backlash Ricky Gervais has received from this years Golden Globe awards. In my mind, he basically said things we all know to be true (and trust me, if you've seen the movie, you know it's true) I.E how was The Tourist nominated for anything????..... ANYTHING?? I mean, what do you expect a brash comedian to say?  But there are more examples, Helen Thomas being fired from the White House Press Corps, Rick Sanchez being fired from CNN, and Juan Williams being fired from NPR. See where I'm going with this? And I know freedom of speech works both ways. A literal depiction of the first amendment would be me blogging; you disagreeing, me responding, and you disagreeing, on and on and on (oh America). But what is this firing business? it seems people are being fired because of some group they've offended. Juan Williams said the Muslims attacked us on 9/11. And though I'm not calling my Muslim friends, or Muslims in general terrorist...did someone else attack us on 9/11? I thought these specific attackers were all Muslim? My point is, America has gotten to a point where people are afraid to say obvious things out of fear of being fired. Speech is being curtailed because it's too "messy" or "Brash" and this is what fear most.

"I'd Rather be Dead, Than Living and Broke"

Is a quote from an unnamed Facebook status. Ok, I know the name, but for privacy's sake, will remain nameless. Earlier today, a friend of mine ( who will also remain nameless) was crying due to finances. These two events deserve consideration. In what way do finances affect our lives? A commodity with no intrinsic value, has been the cause of suicide, war, disease, corruption, and slavery. What psychological power does an inanimate object have, to make one kill his brother, or create songs praising it's worth? If the power of this god is so great, so entrenched in the minds of society, is it possible to have a satisfactory life without, or with very little of it? How can one have a successful relationship without the worship of this beast?

Furthermore...

When the phrase, "I don't care about money" is stated, it's either highly naive, or disassociated with our reality ( or at least my reality). If Bill Gates utters, "I don't care about money" he's disassociated, and if Comrade Yosef says it, he's naive.  Whatever your perspective, we are trapped in a world where, as history shows, paper means more than ethics, morals, and all those other things you can think of. This being the case, how can one develop relationships, when stuck on broke? Using an example from my life, lets say I'm broke...better yet, let's say I'm rich. After hanging out with a "broad," does she genuinely like me? Or is she enamored with the great time we've had? Or if we take the autobiographical approach, lets say I'm broke. Did the relationship fail because..well..I suck, or because we couldn't do anything that requires money (most of the fun stuff)? I mean, creativity and sweetness can't last forever, or in my case, the matriculation through college.
Humans are social creatures. We eat food we haven't caught, wear clothes we haven't made, and live in houses we haven't built. We understand the "love" of money is wrong, and yet our actions are geared toward it's accumulation. The best things in life are truly free. However, when these things are adulterated by consumerism and supply- and- demand, what does that say about society? Perhaps, if the choices are, dead vs. living and broke. A society based on, "the collective group" would be wiser than a society based off the individual; a construct not found in other primates. Perhaps when society cultivates thoughts of money over life, I'd rather be dead, than living and broke.